SADNESS

I'm telling you I can't be away from him any more its killing my heart inside of me. Yes, you might say boo hoo. I turly feel this way. I wanna just hold his hand, tast his sweet kiss, feel that warm feeling that i get when his arms are raped around me. Steven is the guy that holds my heart in his soul. All only think about him. Yesterday when he came to school way way out of it I was worryed that something was really wrong witth him. I don' ever wanna see him the way he was yesterday. I miss my Steven. Well school to me isn't the same with out my Steven right by me. Even if he doesn't kiss me haveing him close to me is happyness. I told him online last night that it would be ok if he didn't show up to school today but I lied it wasn't ok. I know he needed to rest up to get better but oh who am I kidding? I wanted him to come to school because I freak when he's not there. Yesterday I didn't talk to anyone at lunch it was weird. I miss Steven!!!!! Its killing my heart ot be away from him for so long and we got the dumb ass weekend. This dumb ass weekend is for yes Thanksgiving. I just wish we only had one day off just for that. I'll like not see him for about a one week of school because of this. I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! My heart is dieing as we speek. Life I know will go on and yes, I know I'll see him again but to me one day with out him is like a month away to me. =< Sadness has awakened inside of me but IDK if I can go on much longer. Yes people you can think I"m crazy nut I'm NOT CRAZY!!!!!! I'm just a teenage girl madly in love. You may kill me soul and my life but you will never kill my love for Steven.