Pinkie's World

You ask me how I feel
I wish I could just tell you
The tears running down my skin
And while I am fading away
You just stand there and watch
As I begin to tremble with a dark sadness
I may be loud on the outside
I talk, I play
But on the inside...
I lose all hope to pray
God forgotten
The black seeping in
A tribute to death
As I begin to grin
The tears burn away
The sadness no more showing
I kick you down
And run away
Wondering why I did that
I slink into a corner
Alone, depressed...
I think of all the things
I would lose if I just... left
My friends, my family...
Then it hit me
They never cared
They say stuff
But Im still feeling scared
A quick heal is all they wish for
Nothing permanent
Nothing lifelong
They never felt my sadness
They never felt the pain
All they ever felt
Is the need to play their own game
I cant tell anyone
Of the darkness I endured
The pain of knowing you have no one
Being hated by nearly everyone
Tortured by preps
My damaged soul
Is ripped to pieces
In every way imaginable
You ask me how I feel
I wish I could just tell you
The tears running down my skin
And while I am fading away
You just stand there and watch...
So either save me or kill me
Put me out of my misery
Or Ill do it MYSELF.
My friend Mary
Always jokes around about
My 'secret emoness'
It was all a joke
Until now
The tears now run down my skin
Not of just clear
But of red as well
The pain temporarily relieved
Then it all comes back to me in a mad rush
Worse
I cut deeper, deeper
The pain still there
I struggle and fight to get it away
The sadness, the lonliness
All are still there
During the lunch-time
I slip away, un noticed
Slipping through the halls
I look in the mirror
My blood-stained sleeve
Tears running down my face
Razor in hand
I realize how pathetic I look
But I see sadness as well

I am now 17
4 years ago, I looked in this very mirror
I grab my blade
For my last cut
As I die
Nobody ever helped me
Nobody ever cared
I had my large knife in hand
One last tear
One last play
Before I had to go
The end of my days...